On a recent episode of #WithChude, reality TV star Oluwabusayomi ‘Khloe’ Abiri sits down with Chude Jideonwo, founder of Joy, Inc, to discuss her surgery, how it led to her suicide attempt, closing her womb, and life after #BBNaija.
The BBNaija star discusses how the leak of a photo of her post-surgery body in 2022 prompted her to attempt suicide.
“Never for once has anybody ever made me feel bad about myself.
“If you tell me I am crazy, my mouth is enough for me to help myself.
“But something happened about a year and half ago, when I had my surgery, that brought me out of my comfort zone, pulled me out of my confidence, and pulled me out of everything that made me Khloe.
“It is not the fact that the picture came out that is my problem.
“I have posted naked pictures on Instagram, and if I like tomorrow, I will post naked pictures and that does not mean that my money will be less.
“But I was betrayed.
“I still do not know who posted that picture.
“I just want to know.
“I have forgiven the person.
“What has happened has happened.
“Let us have a drink over it.
“I am a very forgiving person.
“But I felt betrayed.
“I felt like who could have done that to me?
“Because at that time, I only had close people.
“And I am like: ‘Why would you? What is the gain?’
“It is okay to tell the story that ‘she just had her body done’, but why the picture?
“Why was I lying unconscious on a bed out of surgery and somebody that has a soul took a picture and sent to one stupid dirty-ass blog?”
On her reaction to the event, Khloe said:
“I was suicidal.
“That was the only time the media got to me in my life.
“Thank God I have great people around me: My friends – and they were amazing – and my mom, my dad, and my aunts.
“You know, when they say people are suicidal, I laugh.
“But I could not think of anything when that picture got to my phone; everything was black.
“That night was dark.
“I do not even want to talk about it.
“I am having goose bumps already.
“For anybody that is trying to take their life, please think of your mother or your father.
“You might be at peace, or be in hell, but the pain will linger on their mind every time, every day.”
Khloe also shared how being in the reality TV show Big Brother Naija changed her life.
She said: “I have been unappreciative about it before, but looking back, now that I know better, I am calmer.
“I know that the experience changed my life and opened my eyes to everything.
“Before Big Brother, I would be in a room of 10 people, and I would talk to only one.
“Big Brother made me connect with others.
“People used to think I was rude, arrogant or stubborn.
“I said it when I had my interview that I just wanted people to see the real me.
“Big Brother opened me to a lot of things and made me see that people are not who or what it seems like.”
While speaking about relationships and starting a family, Khloe mentioned that she was taking her time, adding: “I can’t get pregnant if I don’t want to.
“My womb is sealed.
“And I did it because I don’t want to bring a child into this life to suffer.”